Yeah.
If you're smart, you'd have known by now that I'm totally lazy when it comes to thinking for titles for blog entries. So, yeah.
A few days ago, I wrote 2 long entries that were supposed to be posted a couple of days ago on a notebook. I realize now that writing on a notebook and then later transferring it online is so much better. Writing on paper helps me to vent some frustration, and feel a little bit more emotional when writing. Anyway, the 1st post I wrote was my latest post, besides this one, and the 2nd one I wrote is so super depressive that typing it out at this hour would just give me a sleepless night.
I didn't start off the Lunar New Year on a great note. I'm still struggling with fear, uncertainty, self doubt and so many other things. Life in camp is still really tough for me, what with many of my previous mistakes returning to haunt me. I just wish I hadn't been so disobedient to God. But I'm moving on, after a huge bout of self loathing and self pity, and by the grace of God, I'm coming back. Raymond's coming back. Byebye Depression, you sickening Mr Black Wave. You're dead to me now, and will never come back to my life. There is fullness in the presence of God. So yeah. Preachy Raymond is back. Which means, the real Raymond's back in da house!
Having said that, I'll still post my uber depressive entry tomorrow, though it was written quite some time ago.
-On a different note-
Well, this year I spent Valentine's Day by myself at home. With my family members, of course. Really, I know countless people going on and on about V-day, ranting incessantly and complaining till no end. I have my gripes, but with me not spending it with a special someone, I do not have any real thing to complain about.
I miss the days of secondary school, whereby Valentine's Day was also Friendship Day and everyone in their cliques would get something for each other. Now at my age, Vday's other alias is not recognized among those of the same age as me.
I've never really celebrated V-day with any special one yet, but I really do want to do that soon. I think I'm really wishing hard for a great girl to come my way. I want next year to be my last V-day ever!From 21 onwards, I'll be celebrating Vday with that special girl.
Anyway on Valentine's Day, I received a message from my cousin, reminding me to pray for all those who are being afflicted with all sorts of crap, like depression, loneliness and those in a sexually exploited affair.It's days past V-day, but I'll definitely remember to. God is the greatest lover of anyone, and I do pray everyone will be set free from whatever is afflicting them. Aiite, I'm done with my preaching.
A few days ago, I wrote 2 long entries that were supposed to be posted a couple of days ago on a notebook. I realize now that writing on a notebook and then later transferring it online is so much better. Writing on paper helps me to vent some frustration, and feel a little bit more emotional when writing. Anyway, the 1st post I wrote was my latest post, besides this one, and the 2nd one I wrote is so super depressive that typing it out at this hour would just give me a sleepless night.
I didn't start off the Lunar New Year on a great note. I'm still struggling with fear, uncertainty, self doubt and so many other things. Life in camp is still really tough for me, what with many of my previous mistakes returning to haunt me. I just wish I hadn't been so disobedient to God. But I'm moving on, after a huge bout of self loathing and self pity, and by the grace of God, I'm coming back. Raymond's coming back. Byebye Depression, you sickening Mr Black Wave. You're dead to me now, and will never come back to my life. There is fullness in the presence of God. So yeah. Preachy Raymond is back. Which means, the real Raymond's back in da house!
Having said that, I'll still post my uber depressive entry tomorrow, though it was written quite some time ago.
-On a different note-
Well, this year I spent Valentine's Day by myself at home. With my family members, of course. Really, I know countless people going on and on about V-day, ranting incessantly and complaining till no end. I have my gripes, but with me not spending it with a special someone, I do not have any real thing to complain about.
I miss the days of secondary school, whereby Valentine's Day was also Friendship Day and everyone in their cliques would get something for each other. Now at my age, Vday's other alias is not recognized among those of the same age as me.
I've never really celebrated V-day with any special one yet, but I really do want to do that soon. I think I'm really wishing hard for a great girl to come my way. I want next year to be my last V-day ever!From 21 onwards, I'll be celebrating Vday with that special girl.
Anyway on Valentine's Day, I received a message from my cousin, reminding me to pray for all those who are being afflicted with all sorts of crap, like depression, loneliness and those in a sexually exploited affair.It's days past V-day, but I'll definitely remember to. God is the greatest lover of anyone, and I do pray everyone will be set free from whatever is afflicting them. Aiite, I'm done with my preaching.
